The Alpha and the Omega

     He's nine ears old, but I still have to look in on him each night. The day he was born, I understood what it meant to give myself over to someone, much like the Knights long passed. As I held him in my arms at 6:15 in the morning after three hours sleep, I could only whisper, "I will do anything to give you a better life than I've had." His coos met with misty memories. A creation well made.

     She's two years my wife, but I still kiss her when I crawl in beside her each night. The day we got to know one another, I was ready to give myself to this woman, much like... (You know - date stuff!) As I held her in my arms (to her surprise), I could only tell her, "I will not betray you - this was more than friends". Her visage causing blurred vision. A wife well met.

Two With You

     The past few days have beeen a little stressful with my dollface and I; but we came through it okay like we always do. Whenever we are at odds, I am always reminded how much happiness and tranquility she brings to this battered heart of mine. I cannot say enough how much finding her after 38 years of searching for ANY sense of peace has been miraculous. Even with full knowledge of my shortcomings, my irritations and my weaknesses; she finds a way to love me. My humanity limits me from being so much more for her - I want to give her every happiness I can muster. At times, however, my pride or ego or selfishness slide in the side and skew my perception of what my heart knows. I will never be the greatest person. I will never be the kindest individual. I am certainly not the brightest bulb. I just hope I can live up to being the Husband she waited so long for. In time, I hope to become the man she can be proud of; that she can lean on; that brings her happiness in his every thought, movement, emotion and relation. 

     I want to (Someday) die knowing without a shadow of a doubt that I made the world a much better place for her.

     Hummingbird, come and let me share my world with you. Show me the Smile of God.